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Chatted with my grandfather for 20 minute alone. He still can relate the whole "yi nan wang" show to me. While talking he tried very hard to catch his breath.

Sometimes i can see tears clocking up at his eyes.

I think he is trying very hard to swallow his Silvia.

It pains me to see him like this.

What make me even more sad was that my grandma was like when she was suffering.

Exactly the same thing repeated in front of my eyes.

Its very hard to hold back tears but I did.

I don't want history to repeat itself.

Everything seems to be repeating by itself.

My grandfather knew the condition he is in now very clearly himself.

Its so sad to see somebody suffering, esp when its your dear ones.

He know his condition very well himself and he is afraid that he will be a burden so he try very hard not to make us worry.

If everything is going to happen for the second time, would i be able to take it?

I hope my weak heart will be able to take it.

Its very nice to chat with him.

How long will i be able to do that.