Hi :)

It's been the longest time. Woohoo Leshay, my daughter is going very fine n damn pretty hahaha A lot people don believe she is mine la, Anyway, I love being little Myanmar and always will :D Take care

Why

I give birth to this baby thinking what the baby could accompany me wherever I go or wherever I am. But I am wrong. Many of the
Things I cannot even make the decision. Why is this so. I am the mother I thought I already have the authority to do something. If not, when will I have the authority to make decision or make a choice on my own. I feel very upset. Right now,I don even have the right to feel upset. I wan to vent my anger but I got no place to do so.
I really feel sad.
I thought married life was happier more pampered more love. More laughter.
But I don laugh anymore.
Not anymore.
U can hardly see my laughter
I feel so coped up inside. I wan to shout n scream n cry out loud.
I hope after I do all that I will feel better. I like to live a happy n carefree life with my family.
But I don feel like that.
I get very stress up with the actions n things people say. Logical or not, I have to pretend to be happy.
I wan to laugh n joke around like I used to. I wan my daughter to be happy like what I used to be.

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I feel so stressful with my life.
When the baby is awake I have someone to play with but when she is asleep, I feel so lonely.
I feel as if I am living alone in the world.

Time flies

Everything happen so fast.
In a blink of eyes,i am already 24 years old.
I am already a mother
I cant really believe it.
Still remember the times I go clubbing and get super high.
Those powerhouse, dragon fly, rebel...
Those cherry may days.
The ar Lu la ma pel dae....
I really missed those days when I was young n free.
But I really look forward to growing up with my baby.
I hope my baby n Elton will always be happy n healthy
Not forgetting my parents n my sisters who are always there for me.
Who really stood by me throughout.
I really understand what's the meaning when they say nothing is better then kinship.

my baby girl

Meet leshay

everyone
meet my baby girl, Leshay
love her to death :D
hope she will be happy and healthy all her life

oh by the way i wan to thank everyone for coming down to visit me

my parents, mil, sisters , relatives, all my cousins and friends!!!~~

thanks for the ang baos, chicken essense, gifts, presents for baby etc etc

i thank you all on behalf of my little leshay.

:D

and my husband who is there throughout the whole labour, without him, i don think i can overcome the pain and stress. even though i always get into arguement with him, i really cannot survive without him.

he was very strong for me throughout the whole labour.

he cooks for my confinment daily and take great care of me.

i am really very thankful for everything.

elton, i will put in my best effort to take care of you n baby

n hope the little elton ho family will always be happy n healthy.

HUAT AH!~

Baby girl

My baby girl is out .
Never let me suffer much. 8.30pm water burst, 12.21am give birth.
Quite fast muhahaha.
The contradiction pain is like hell. But lucky I always shit also very pain.
I am so happy . The baby is so fine n beautiful like mummy Muhahaha.
Meet my baby soon
:D

How much effort do u need to put?

Ever wonder how much effort do u need to put in something before u get back the same amount as the outcome.
Or u will never.
Ur first priority doesn't mean it's his first.
Or it will never ever be his first.
I am getting tired.
Why do I feel exhausted.
Will there be one day when he says he gives up on me.
Why do I always feel I am not worth anything after the things I have done for him.
He doesn't seems to appreciate anything.
Not eight years ago, not now, not in the future.
:(

Can't wait

I can't wait for baby to come, I didn't know that being pregnant means having to abide to so many rules n regulation.
I thought as long as u r comfortable or happy with what you r doing, ur pregnancy will be fine.
But no, thanks to all the traditional rules passed down, being pregnent means no to this, no to that.
I always have to do things I like secretly , like drinking cold water, cutting stuff on the bed, eating things I like to eat.
I feel so stress in this environment.
And to think I have to suffer two more month for confinement.
I don know why because seriously all these are not doctor certified, its just myth n legend.
Why do we even bother to visit the doctor.
Dinosaur do not live in this era, right.
Next time I am going to be a very modern mum, I will go to the beach with my kids in bikini, will go clubbing with them, will introduce them with the latest techno songs, will mix around with their friends, will drink with them if they are feeling down, will bring them to concert and let them lead their own lives.
Of cause certain things are big no no for me.
Smoking
Drugs
Pimping
Prositution
I am tired already, I wan baby to come faster n accompany me.
Sunday just met up with may n San min, she gave me chicken Essenes , I am already very fat doctor say baby is 3.1kg at wk36 but I am not worried at all.
Alot of people around me also tell me very pain very pain, but the problem is that so many people have already even birth to baby as big as 4,5,6,7 kg, why Must i worried !!!
Even those scare to die also can give birth, why I must worry?!!!
I don understand, why must people keep telling me , giving birth is very painful blah blah blah, but everybody also go through ma.
Why must I be afraid. I can't figure this out.

Pain also pain that few hours, that few days.
I really don like people to keep telling me it's very pain, blah blah blah.
I know it's going to be pain, just shout n scream lol, really no big deal to me.
I think the more scary part is being control.
Like the body damm pain or whatever still cannot bath, cannot this n that.
Agree with me please.

Ok enough of complaining, I don wan baby to be like me talk so much.

Baby, come out soon, mummy is waiting for a very long time~~~

my valentine

me n elton exchange present on 13th night 12am which is the 14th
valentine's day
very exciting because this year baby also got present.
muhahahah
bought for baby disney romper.


elton wrapped the present up very nicely.
this wrapping skill is bo wei gong one.
i don think i can even wrap like this.


Tadah!!!
G-shock watch
pink colour, pretty right~~~


i bought for him a renoma bag
:D
hope he likes it.

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My sister handmade this minnie mouse bag

damm pretty, inside contains handmade sweet.

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little sister bought me n elton minnie n mickey

damm cute

loves~~~

and a little rose~~~

what is valentine day without roses

muhahahah

lovelove~~

Hope you guys enjoy ur valentine's day too

can't wait for march to come

BIG DAY~~~~

post dated picture

i promise to stay with you
thick and thin :)

My new house

I hope my new house will finish very soon.
I can't wait to have a new house of my own.
I wan to walk around in my house and sing song n shout madly whole day long
I need the new house badly.

Sucks

Why do some people always know whats going happen but still behave in the way, I don understand.
People are so strange. They jolly well know they are going to suffer after taking this step but they still take just for that moment of pleasure or interest.
People can just easily cover up by saying accident or what shit la. But u see if u knock down someone n then tell the police accident then no need to jail meh.
Gam pui man.
All these are just lame excuses.

:(

I miss my family so much
I feel so strange to stay away from home so long time
I miss being disturbed by my sister
Now my life is always boring n lifeless