How much effort do u need to put?

Ever wonder how much effort do u need to put in something before u get back the same amount as the outcome.
Or u will never.
Ur first priority doesn't mean it's his first.
Or it will never ever be his first.
I am getting tired.
Why do I feel exhausted.
Will there be one day when he says he gives up on me.
Why do I always feel I am not worth anything after the things I have done for him.
He doesn't seems to appreciate anything.
Not eight years ago, not now, not in the future.
:(

Can't wait

I can't wait for baby to come, I didn't know that being pregnant means having to abide to so many rules n regulation.
I thought as long as u r comfortable or happy with what you r doing, ur pregnancy will be fine.
But no, thanks to all the traditional rules passed down, being pregnent means no to this, no to that.
I always have to do things I like secretly , like drinking cold water, cutting stuff on the bed, eating things I like to eat.
I feel so stress in this environment.
And to think I have to suffer two more month for confinement.
I don know why because seriously all these are not doctor certified, its just myth n legend.
Why do we even bother to visit the doctor.
Dinosaur do not live in this era, right.
Next time I am going to be a very modern mum, I will go to the beach with my kids in bikini, will go clubbing with them, will introduce them with the latest techno songs, will mix around with their friends, will drink with them if they are feeling down, will bring them to concert and let them lead their own lives.
Of cause certain things are big no no for me.
Smoking
Drugs
Pimping
Prositution
I am tired already, I wan baby to come faster n accompany me.
Sunday just met up with may n San min, she gave me chicken Essenes , I am already very fat doctor say baby is 3.1kg at wk36 but I am not worried at all.
Alot of people around me also tell me very pain very pain, but the problem is that so many people have already even birth to baby as big as 4,5,6,7 kg, why Must i worried !!!
Even those scare to die also can give birth, why I must worry?!!!
I don understand, why must people keep telling me , giving birth is very painful blah blah blah, but everybody also go through ma.
Why must I be afraid. I can't figure this out.

Pain also pain that few hours, that few days.
I really don like people to keep telling me it's very pain, blah blah blah.
I know it's going to be pain, just shout n scream lol, really no big deal to me.
I think the more scary part is being control.
Like the body damm pain or whatever still cannot bath, cannot this n that.
Agree with me please.

Ok enough of complaining, I don wan baby to be like me talk so much.

Baby, come out soon, mummy is waiting for a very long time~~~

my valentine

me n elton exchange present on 13th night 12am which is the 14th
valentine's day
very exciting because this year baby also got present.
muhahahah
bought for baby disney romper.


elton wrapped the present up very nicely.
this wrapping skill is bo wei gong one.
i don think i can even wrap like this.


Tadah!!!
G-shock watch
pink colour, pretty right~~~


i bought for him a renoma bag
:D
hope he likes it.

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My sister handmade this minnie mouse bag

damm pretty, inside contains handmade sweet.

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little sister bought me n elton minnie n mickey

damm cute

loves~~~

and a little rose~~~

what is valentine day without roses

muhahahah

lovelove~~

Hope you guys enjoy ur valentine's day too

can't wait for march to come

BIG DAY~~~~

post dated picture

i promise to stay with you
thick and thin :)