i'll be there

You and I must make a pact,
we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, Ill be there

Ill reach out my hand to you,
Ill have faith in all you do
Just call my name and Ill be there

these lyrics are from the jackson 5 song : I'll be there.
recently jamie fox just sang it during a tribute to MJ.
and i think he sing the song really nicely.
its damm touching!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hy7Gt2kH5fg
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Friday night, home again.
If every friday i am to stay at home like that,
i probably go crazy.
Which i think i will very soon.
I don't really know what to do on a friday night besides going dragonfly & playing lan.
Which just makes me remember i don't have a gaming partner who will play L4d with me 24 hours.
i talk to ct just now.
i can see that he is really concern. but holding back.
i don't really know what to say to him.
i feel very happy talking to him. very comforting.
he is different from all his friends.

anyway,
i kept thinking about my grandma these few days hence i decided to visit her tomorrow.
:)
its been some time.
Grandma, pandan cakes ok?
:P
love you.

tried sleeping at 8pm but couldn't get to sleep.
-_-"
friday nights are so diao -_-"
i should really start to find some part time job or do volunteering job.
or just stop resisting and go to the club and dance.
.
.
Wanted to meet elton but afraid to tired him out.
He came down to bring me to pasa malam yesterday so if i make him come down today again, i think he will be so tired out.
He asked whether i wanted him to come down and take dinner with me.
i rejected him! -_-" i feel myself so damm asshole sometimes.
why am i always rejecting things that i wanted all the while in the first place!
F.
I shall always regret in the end.
.
.
To people, home is a sweet place but i cannot get peace and sweetness at home.
I don't know why.
i dread going home everyday.
I get very frustrated when people keep asking me repeated questions over and over again.
and whats more when i am very busy concentrating on something.
!@#$%

Somebody, tell me, what do i actually live for?
Money?
Love?
or what.