No amount of money can buy happiness or somebody's smile.

I mentioned last post that the aunty treat me to her birthday cake and green bean soup, so in order to thank her i bought her a mini cake and a stalk of rose.
She was so happy and kept thanking me throughout the whole day and even bought me one packet of High class Chocolate.
I felt very happy because i see her smiling so happily.
The feeling is so nice when you make somebody happy.

Bought clothes for my mum and dad because they always give me money when they know i didn't have enough money with me. They are always worried for me. I am 20 already and i still need to make them worried for me. My dad even gave me money to buy new year clothes because he knew my part time job was not earning much and very tiring. So instead of buying clothes for myself. I bought one for my mum, one for dad and one for Elton.
Elton is always around when i needed help :)
And then i go bankrupt again.

I remembered a few weeks ago i bought a bag for my grandma's sister.
We didn't see each other often after my grandma passed away.
When i went to her house to pass her the bag she was so shocked and happy. The smile and happiness i see from her face is really very warm and touching.
Just like my grandma when she smile and thanked me.
Actually there is so many things i wanted to buy and give to my grandma personally. But she is not here with me.
So I thought why don't i spend my money on somebody that is still well and alive and make that person happy.
My grandma love her sister so much so i think i ought to do the same and take care of her sister for her.

I miss my grandma so much.
I have so many things to tell her.
But whenever i face her urn, i don't have the courage to do so. I am so afraid i will break down in tears.
I hope she will be here to celebrate and spend every festival with me.
We could quarrel and laugh and joke together.
I still miss the food she cooks for me :)
I hope i will be eating her dishes instead of having packet food everyday.
Breakfast cant eat because always wake up late.
Lunch, packet food or fast food or cup noodle
Dinner, packet food or waffle.
Damm bloody pathetic.

I wish to share a cup of milo with her.
I wish she wore the clothes i bought for her.
I wish to bring her to eat Myanmar food with me.
I wish I wish...
She was here right beside me.

And the good news,
The letter i wrote to my grandma will be publish into a book.
:)
:)
Happiness man.
I hope she really gets to read it.
Its all written from the bottom of my heart.
She will be proud of me if she knows about it :P

Once again.
Here is it.


Dear Grandma,


A letter from earth to heaven.

A year have passed since you went to heaven, what you left behind are beautiful memories that will never be forgotten.
You are the most beautiful women god gave me.
You taught me things that teachers doesn't teach in school, Integrity.
You made me feel love out of little daily accommodations.
The porridge that you cook for me daily, the Milo that you share with me nightly.
The mid night movies that we secretly watched because you were afraid that mom and dad would reprimand me.
The snacks you share with me each night to make me grow fatter.
I miss the quarrels and arguments we had that will bring us closer thereafter.
The toothless smile you gave that will always brighten my day.
The happiness you gave from the bottom of your heart.

For the pass 18 years, you brought me up with tender loving care.
You shown me how forgiving one human's nature can be when you forgive grandpa for his wrong doings.
You gave me more things then i needed.
You shown me that if money can buy love, its not love anymore. Its pity.


You left me on 17th May 2007, this fateful day.
My heart felt so empty and lonely.
No words could describe the pain in my heart.
But i knew that no words could describe the pain in your suffering too.
I saw your sufferings through my bare eyes.
The way you wanted to scream but you can't.
I couldn't hold you back nor let you leave.
You are so lovable that I knew god wanted to have a piece of you so badly, he won.

Its the first time i saw grandpa teared when you breathe your last.


In front of your alter, i place a little cup of Milo.
I don't know whether you could ever drink that cup of Milo or when will we ever share the same cup of Milo again.
But i know i will be missing you always.
Deep down in my heart you will always be the grandma i once loved, always love, will be loving.

If we were ever to meet again. I'll tell you personally how much i treasure and love you.

Ever since you left, the orchid plant which you took care of is always blooming beautiful flowers.
Strangely, it was always bloom 7 flowers at a time. Dad is helping you to take care of it. Whenever we went to pray you, dad would pluck down the 7 flowers and place it on your urn.
I hope you did see that from heaven.

In the meantime, i will love grandpa like how i love you. I will take care of him just the way you took care of me. I will fill the loneliness you left him with my tender loving care. You have since forgiven him and so do I.

The love i have for you is unexplainable by simple english words.

Till then, when we next meet...

With Love,
Your little granddaughter.


My grandma will always be the grandma that i love. Now and forever :)

Thanks to national library for choosing my letter too :)

From this year on, I'll have to work really hard. I have been wasting too much of my time and this year is 2009 already. Its a brand new year. So i must work hard for what i want. I will.

Lets all progress together this beautiful year!
Huat ah!!!