why

why.

Pics

sylvia said that she is waiting for me to up date my blog.
LOL
hence, here i come.
i have been eating durian for 3 conse nights
god.
felvira, you have no determination.
but good food cannot be waste ma right.
hahahahaha
any way,



Pictures from my dad's camera.
thou not all because he only send me like that.
-_-"
got a few handsome guys one he didn't send.

my pink boots are damm cool right

LOL

previously my colleague's farewell dinner.

just manage to upload the pictures.

anyway, i watched MJ tribute last night and i find it very touching indeed.

esp when his daughter said i love you.

even thou i dont really know about him or heard any songs from his album, i hope he'll find a better place soon.

a place where there is no suffering.

just like my grandma.

R.I.P.

pictures

Pictures taken at temple.

Me and grandma. miss u
:)

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@ east coast.

dad's family day.

hair beading which is damm lousy.

not five minutes all the bead came dropping out.

:)

The rest of the pics at dad's camera.

unable to upload until he sends it to me.

and today i realise

Elton is scare if dentist. :X

i went inside the dentist with him and i kept laughing at a corner.

LOL.

i thought i was the only one who was scared of dentist.

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now i realise what true friends really mean.

:)

thank you.

and mr small

you better remember your promise ok.

31 july dragonfly everybody.

Saturday.gone.

Its like the most tiring sat i ever had.
morning when to pray my grandma,
then aunt house
then my dad's family day
then marina
then L4D
then home.
i think i know the whole of penansular plaza people already.
and most of them know i love myo gyi a lot.
LOL LOL
news spread really fast
and
pictures up soon ok.
Too tired today.
good night
sweet dreams.
i love you, baby.

i'll be there

You and I must make a pact,
we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, Ill be there

Ill reach out my hand to you,
Ill have faith in all you do
Just call my name and Ill be there

these lyrics are from the jackson 5 song : I'll be there.
recently jamie fox just sang it during a tribute to MJ.
and i think he sing the song really nicely.
its damm touching!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hy7Gt2kH5fg
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Friday night, home again.
If every friday i am to stay at home like that,
i probably go crazy.
Which i think i will very soon.
I don't really know what to do on a friday night besides going dragonfly & playing lan.
Which just makes me remember i don't have a gaming partner who will play L4d with me 24 hours.
i talk to ct just now.
i can see that he is really concern. but holding back.
i don't really know what to say to him.
i feel very happy talking to him. very comforting.
he is different from all his friends.

anyway,
i kept thinking about my grandma these few days hence i decided to visit her tomorrow.
:)
its been some time.
Grandma, pandan cakes ok?
:P
love you.

tried sleeping at 8pm but couldn't get to sleep.
-_-"
friday nights are so diao -_-"
i should really start to find some part time job or do volunteering job.
or just stop resisting and go to the club and dance.
.
.
Wanted to meet elton but afraid to tired him out.
He came down to bring me to pasa malam yesterday so if i make him come down today again, i think he will be so tired out.
He asked whether i wanted him to come down and take dinner with me.
i rejected him! -_-" i feel myself so damm asshole sometimes.
why am i always rejecting things that i wanted all the while in the first place!
F.
I shall always regret in the end.
.
.
To people, home is a sweet place but i cannot get peace and sweetness at home.
I don't know why.
i dread going home everyday.
I get very frustrated when people keep asking me repeated questions over and over again.
and whats more when i am very busy concentrating on something.
!@#$%

Somebody, tell me, what do i actually live for?
Money?
Love?
or what.

LOVE

I shall define love from my point of view.
Quarrels, laughter, joy, fighting, waiting, loving, hugging, kissing & missing.
tell me correct or not?
So if elton really choose to smoke, i shall support him from now on.
and if i choose to club, he have to support me too. LOL
but it will be silly for him to smoke because next time will get lung cancer then will die then all his money is mine!!! ha ha ha ha *evil laughter's*
on the other hand, he doesn't have money. LOL
but i still love him.
i shall try to accommodate him from now on.
i think i cannot live without him even though he always make me really angry.
life is really strange.

Humans feelings are such a mystery.
trying solving it.

$$$

MY newly bought floor map.
super cute and its only $9.90!!!
anyway, i gave tuition and piano lesson tonight.
quite nervous but my student was a very nice girl
so not bad.
i need to play L4D badly.
as badly as i need to go dragonfly.
and people, i shall not celebrate my birthday on the 1st of Aug because the stupid PANWEIBO is going to dragonfly and hence sure fullhouse.
i don wan to be squeezing with so many young girls at dragonfly and I DON LIKE PAN WEI PO, so no point.
should i change it to friday night, 31st or 6 of aug my exact day or delay one day 7 of aug.
TMD. always find trouble for me one.
can't he just go to dragonfly other days!
i really hope i can save up some money and stop coming up with so many funny ideas.
Felvira, please please please. be more sensible.